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I saw you for the first time
It was a shiny night
I said hello my hands are all shaky
I really didn't know what should be said

CHORUS
My God you are so beautiful
You're everything that I have ever dreamt

You answered with a smile
I guess you could've guessed
I know that I am obvious
But I don't really care


CHORUS
My God you are so beautiful
You're everything that I have ever dreamt
And now that I can finally see you
You fade before my eyes

My God you are so beautiful
You're everything that I have ever dreamt
I don't know where to find you
I don't know who you are

The shortest road

I take a vow of devotion
'A promise that I'll never break'
I said ever I would seek You
That Your voice is all I would hear

I know You always heard my cry
When I gave up my hopes and dreams
Sometimes I wish I never knew You
But deep down I know that's not true

CHORUS

If I could start over again
The day one when I just met You
I won't promise I would make it right
But I know You can see my heart

I don't think this song is ready just yet. I might add a second verse and I am definitely recording this stuff so I don't forget.

Easier to fake

And I say I love you
But I know it's much easier to fake
I know you are near me
But I wish I could trust in You

I know you are all I need
To break through this darkness
To break through my heart

I guess I just don't know how to love You
I don't know how is it that You are so perfect to me
And I still always choose to break your heart

You came to my rescue
You showed me the best way to live
I am your desire
You bathe me with your holy light

It's not that I don't believe you
It's just that I don't know how to be worthy of You

I know I can love you much better than this

The song

There was a time when I didn't think too much about things. I think I was 2 or 3. Today there's way too many things in my head to even cope with. Is it my job, the fact that I'm in a place that I can't call home, that I am easily satisfied in the things that don't matter, but in those that make the difference, I just can't seem to find rest.
I like music and I do music. It's been a while since I wrote a song. As you know I am a christian, but if by that you understand a guy that only watches Disney movies and almost vomits at the thought of MTV you are terribly wrong. I am a christian in the sense that I believe that Jesus is God and that he yearns for me to draw near to Him. I believe he is very much alive and with astounding thunders or quiet whispers He seems to call my attention.
In the past, maybe 3 or 4 years ago, I wrote a couple of songs about God and they sound a lot like anything you would hear in a Sunday morning service. Today, I don't think I could write a song that sounds like quite like that. I am so different now. Right now I have more questions than answers. It's not that God has changed or even my perception about has changed at all. It's not that I think that God isn't as big or impressive as he was for me 4 years ago, it's just that today the things that are inside of me are perhaps more personal.
I wonder why is it that although I believe in Him and I know he is the best I can choose, I just can choose Him when given the change. I struggle with the fact that I know I can love Him much better than I do, and that sometimes I wish I didn't know Him for my life would be somewhat easier. I know that saying that I wish I didn't know God is not the usual you hear from a godly man, but this is simply what's inside me.
So there we go, I will write new songs and hope that in doing so, I move something in heaven.

Essay

Tell us about yourself in such a way that we will have a good sense of who you are; 500 words.

I wish you would've asked me that two years ago. I could've told you exactly who I was, who I'd be. Two years ago I knew it all and the thing is, I was right. Plans are like candy to the Fates. The only thing you could ever be sure of is nothing ever goes the way you imagined. I should probably be used to that by now. The thing is you can never tell when everything you counted on might fall apart – no matter how solid the rock. Rocks break. Everything changes, even when you think you’re sure, especially. To be fair, if I was one of the Fates looking down at the best laid plans of dumb little people, I'd probably see mine and want to mess with them too.

You want to know about me in 500 words? I get scared sometimes and disappointed. I have doubts and I love getting my way. I don’t like change, but I know it's good for me and inevitable so I welcome it as best I can. There’s a poem by Johann Franck that says it better than I will. "Defy the old dragon, defy fear. The world may rage and quake but I shall remain singing in perfect peace." Yeah, things happen – things you don’t expect – or want or like. The world rages and you become someone you didn’t know you’d ever be. And there you are, in your clothes, in your life, this is my future, this is me. This is me and I want things I never thought I would.

This is from a TV show I really liked. It describes perfectly many things. about me.