The interview

First dates are more than anything interviews. The ideal for a first date is to be able to talk to 'get to know the person better in a more relaxed, personal environment'. So you make all these questions, you read body language. you look them in the eyes and try to read beyond her words, still trying not to make assumptions unless they are too obvious.
Wouldn't it be great if we could just give the person our resume and have them call us later? I say it would be great because that saves you a lot of trouble. Sure the excitement and the anticipation and the whole wooing part is gone, but what the heck?
Hello, my name is Alan. I am 20 and I love my coffee in the morning. I've had one serious relationship in my life, we lasted a little bit over a year you will find her contact info in the reference page. We had to drop it because we had different goals and we couldn't work them out. I also wanted to grow in my life, you know? My best qualities are my tenderness, commitment and sense of humour. I don't like stupid people and I hate bad breath. The things that I struggle with are definitely my choice making. I take a lot of extreme decisions, usually based on the right motives, but hardly ever with the right way. I believe in people but I need to trust you, otherwise this thing won't work.
I am the kind of person that gives his all, expects all in return, but I am happy with the least. I expect my payments every day and I am commited to punctuality.
My expectations are high yet realistic. I am expecting to grow with you and build a life in this relationship.

I am willing to start whenever you need me.

Erratas

After re-reading the Post titled No life, and the latter comments (which btw, as usual, I loved yours Janis), I realized that I should take it away for a simple reason that I explain in my original comment to it. So here it goes.


Balance.. what a great thing. I've been thinking a lot about what I wrote here, and I can say I am unsure of what to think about it. Sometimes there's things in me that I don't understand but they are there. Sometimes I know some things are just right and sometimes they are just wrong. In this case, it's not that I am denying what I said or that I am not backing up this, but even when I wrote this 2 weeks ago, for some reason I am not sure this is entirely what describes all I believe at the moment.
Let's see, before I used to think that Santa Claus was real but later on I learned the awful truth. Before I could give the full account and 'facts' and evidence on why I believe so hard on it's 'realness'. Today I can give you a different version of it.
It's not that I don't believe in this anymore, I can't deny the whys and hows of my life for doing that would definitely be beyond treason and denying.
All I know right now is that this constant realizing of the mysteriousness of God is simply too fast for me to keep up.
I don't think debating back would be wise because I am not trying to convince or look for approval, I only write of what I think and feel and this is it.

I also realized that regardless of.. anything.. I should be more responsible with what I write based on the readers. I am supposed to honor a belief in a place where my beliefs don't exactly fit, and I am to support this.
So I decide to take it away, I saved it in my personal files for future reference.