The lawyer
Through my life I know I was born to be a lawyer. I was also born to be a teacher, friend, father, pastor, mentor and musician. I realize that that part of my personality, the lawyer one, is very alive.
I was trained for 3 years to win. I was trained to be right all the time. Crush the opponent, dismiss all what he is saying, conceal evidence, confuse the judge, be fast, thorough, simple, charming, annoying, witty and make sure they never see you coming.
Has it ever happened to you that for a certain period of time some particular characteristic or statement keeps coming to you again and again? Sometimes during the course of a couple of weeks many people told you how much you are loved. Maybe for many reasons you remember how much you hate peanuts but love peanut butter instead.
For me, these past weeks I've been reminded many times of how blunt I am. I've been told that maybe I am too honest. That my candor is beyond the expected. That I am brave. Inappropiate. Inadequate. That I need tact. Don't hurt people.
Joking I respond that it is nothing but tough love. But is it? It is one of those things where I am just convinced that most people respond or react to a tough treatment. I believe in telling the truth, the whole truth. The tactic is obviously, and this I learned as well, is how fast or how slow I will deliver the truth. Also in what order. But bottom line you will get it all.
How was I? You were all over the place I said. It didn't work. Your costume was nice though.
You were boring. Hehe...
I don't know. I know I am not always right. I wish I had the energy to joke about it and say 'but pretty darn close!'. Truth is at this point I don't know if I am right in many things. I don't know if I've been right before.
Last year the one thing that kept happening to me and that reminded me was that I was loved. That's what last year was all about.
This year, it's been 'you are wrong'.
I was trained for 3 years to win. I was trained to be right all the time. Crush the opponent, dismiss all what he is saying, conceal evidence, confuse the judge, be fast, thorough, simple, charming, annoying, witty and make sure they never see you coming.
Has it ever happened to you that for a certain period of time some particular characteristic or statement keeps coming to you again and again? Sometimes during the course of a couple of weeks many people told you how much you are loved. Maybe for many reasons you remember how much you hate peanuts but love peanut butter instead.
For me, these past weeks I've been reminded many times of how blunt I am. I've been told that maybe I am too honest. That my candor is beyond the expected. That I am brave. Inappropiate. Inadequate. That I need tact. Don't hurt people.
Joking I respond that it is nothing but tough love. But is it? It is one of those things where I am just convinced that most people respond or react to a tough treatment. I believe in telling the truth, the whole truth. The tactic is obviously, and this I learned as well, is how fast or how slow I will deliver the truth. Also in what order. But bottom line you will get it all.
How was I? You were all over the place I said. It didn't work. Your costume was nice though.
You were boring. Hehe...
I don't know. I know I am not always right. I wish I had the energy to joke about it and say 'but pretty darn close!'. Truth is at this point I don't know if I am right in many things. I don't know if I've been right before.
Last year the one thing that kept happening to me and that reminded me was that I was loved. That's what last year was all about.
This year, it's been 'you are wrong'.
posted by Havoc at 10:51 PM
2 Comments:
I wish I had that amazing gift of affirmation because you've definitely provided so many opportunities for me to affirm you! your contribution of wisdom and talent has been a GOd appointed blessing to south florida and all of us and I wish you heard that more!
I remember us talking about this very "you're loved/wrong" subject. It's funny for you to feel over and over again that life wants to show you that you're not always right because to me, you're right most of the time. you have been of great help in so many ways and even though i,myself, might've wanted to show you more than once that you're not always right, i think of you as one of the smartest people i know. and if you're not getting enough reaffirmation about this, you are still,very much, loved.i love you, thank you for everything.
elsa
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